butterflyuk

I've only been here a week but it feels like ages on one hand but on the other
hand I am upset that its only two more weeks left before I leave.

I am fine in day time and can think rationally but at night when everyone is
asleep I am again having panics thinking that my mum might not be here next
time I visit. I feel deep unhappiness that she is so sad without me and so concerned about me. I know that I will not have any love to match hers, (despite her nagging..LOL.) I wish I was strong like some people I know who can be in control,untouched and objective.

On the other brighter side we managed to get mum out of bed and take a few steps. That cheered her up as she started to hope that she will be able to take care of her basic needs herself. Family believes that seeing me has given her the will power and wish to get up.

I had better get off the PC before mum starts to nag again. I am trying to have a quick glance at messages and write a quick note while I am here. Hope to catch up properly on return.