butterflyuk

It's 1 am on Tuesday here so all are in bed. I have sneaked out from the little arms of my lovely niece who sleeps with me. Mum is nagging me to go to bed because the PC is in her room. Although she is ill she is still talking non-stop in case there isn't time left to talk to me. She won't sleep till I go to bed. I don't think mum is happy but then again it is impossible to change things to make everything right. She just said she feels for her children not having an easy life. I thinks its just a mother's point of view. Everyone has to work hard to achieve what they want and not everyone achieve that despite hard work. We all try to find contentment in life but we all need different things to make us happy.

As for me, I have all the love I need here but here I am still up and missing something. I want this life here but I want that life there too. I can't cope with this love of my family now that I have got it. I am frightened of being too attached to it. I am floating in space in between what I have and what I am afraid of.

Don't know why I am writing this but now I have I may as well send it.