butterflyuk

Do you think there are some people put in your life just to make your life more difficult? No matter how hard you try you just wind each other up. Things so great for a while and then you start to argue again. You start to hurt each other again. You know you can’t live without each other but at the same time you can’t live with each other either. You love them dearly and kind of hate them too. No perhaps not hate but you are totally mad with them.

You think you are going to stop yourself going through this rollercoaster ride. You say enough is enough. You absolutely want to be close to them but you know that it is going to drive you mad if you do. You decide that you are going to detach yourself. You can’t just sever the attachment but you are going to take a step back. You are going to go as far as possible without completely disappearing.

You think you have walked away. You think you have cut that tie. You think you are getting on with your life. It is hard and sad but you have to get on with it. Then some little trickle and boom they are back in and you start all over again. The pain and the sadness come back again. The wish and want resurfaces again. The circle starts again.

Unless you are strong enough to stop it before that circle starts to rotate or strong enough to spin safely in it to enjoy the thrill. How do you know that you are?