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Since I was a child I was encouraged to be open with expressing the feelings and emotions. Instead of having a face on like a swollen balloon if you say what the matter is then we can understand what you want – mum used to say when I sulked for something. Being emotional wasn’t seen as a flaw in my personality. It was accepted that I was sensitive and was moved easily. That didn’t mean I was weak or unreasonable.

What has changed then? While some of my friends don’t see me as somebody abnormal why one has always made me feel inferior for opening my heart and mind? Being emotional and saying what I was feeling has not done me any good in that friendship. The way I look at it – if you can’t be the real person you are with a friend then that friendship is not true. If you have to hold back and curtail then you are pretending. If someone cannot handle that then that is their fault and not yours, but it doesn’t work like that, does it? Some how some people have got a knack of making you feel that everything is your fault.

Is being open and letting others see what you are feeling bad? Do people take advantage of the knowledge and do you lose out because of that? How do you make yourself emotionally tougher?