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Boredom: the desire for desires.
-Leo Tolstoy.

Is Leo right? I am not too sure that being bored means a lack of desires.

I am bored. The second office is running reasonably well. My main, original office drives me to "banging head on the wall" frustration. Oh it's running ok. There is nothing wrong but I don't get any buzz out of it. Although I must thank God for the stability and a solid base it provides for my bread and butter.

I am still not on top of my paper work but that is the story of my life. I will be catching up on work even in my grave.

Girlie friend No. 1 has been a clever girl to find a gap in the market creating a niche business earning good. Being a part time worker she is available to harass me for lunches etc. and to drag me away from my work. I have been going out a lot more than I did.

Sickie and the Doggy have been less ill than they were. I have somehow accepted that mum is old and is not going to be much better. I feel guilty that I don't seem to think about her as much as before.

The weather has been kind. The health has been fine.

I have stopped the dead wood - the most annoying person letting me annoy any longer.

Everything appears to be under control so why I am feeling disconnected and aimless? Why am I bored and more to the point what do I do about it? I won't listen to Leo Tolstoy. I don't want to create a desire for desires. It is the desires that make you unstable and confused. It is the desires that make you unhappy when you can't achieve them.

I am not bored by shortage of things to do. I am absolutely busy to spare any time for any thing or any one. I think I am just bored of the empty space in my mind. I need to keep my mind occupied and interested.

Perhaps I should be happy being bored rather than being unhappy when not bored. What would you choose?