butterflyuk

Isn't it just annoying when you know you are a better person for the job and you still don't get it?

I lost a post some months ago and at times I still get angry on myself for not trying harder. Normally I underestimate myself and seek better performance than whatever I have done. This time I was sure I had done well and was pleased with my performance but I lost. Today I was in a meeting which the other person was taking. I felt that I had more and better answers to the questions put in the meeting than the winner. I knew more and could have delivered it much better than them. I felt irritated and jealous.

Then I remembered my belief that whatever happens, happens for a reason. I sorted the house after coming from work and fed the family, i.e. the dog and husband. Took the dog upstairs (sitting room and bedrooms) and barricaded the stairs so that she cannot fall down the stairs trying to follow me. Reminded umptin times that I was going to a meeting, with a note stuck next to the phone. As soon as I reached the venue there was a call from home to ask where was I and was I ok. There were three more calls after that during the two hours at meeting to ask the same things, not remembering that same thing was asked three times before. Each time the call getting more angry and abusive. Fair to say that it was not in the memory that the answers and instructions were given. That made me realise that perhaps whatever happens, happens for a good reason. Perhaps I am more needed where I am even though I could do better somewhere else! Too many perhaps !

Everyone has a destined path in life. We all have a reason for being here. We have to fulfill that reason. Somehow we do it without knowing it. We have to do what is meant for us. That is Karma. .....well it is not explained very well. I could try another time. No doubt there will a lot of disagreement on this. LOL.