butterflyuk

I am tired, as usual, and sad. I have been chatting for ages about all sort of things. Now that should take the sadness away but it hasn't. Why am I sad? At times I do not know myself. At times there are things to make me sad that nobody can understand, they may be only little things or some major ones. I feel bad when people expect from me the things I can't do. I don't want to be a cause of anyone's sadness. At times it hurts me if things aren't going right in my friends' lives. I wish everyone was happy. Some times I feel sad thinking about my own life and future; all the plans and hopes that didn't materialise.

I am also thinking of the people who are, one way or the other, are not with me any more. It hurts when a mental closeness is lost. Do they know they are being missed? Are they thinking of me? Perhaps not.
I do know though that my mum is thinking of me. She is upset because my dad died years ago on this day. I feel sad thinking that one day my mum will not be here. Someone who gives unconditional love.

It also makes me sad when people say bad things about someone I care a great deal for . I want to argue with them that what they are saying is wrong. I get upset when people just don't try to undestand. I wish people were not so bitter. Why can't people see other people's point of view? Injustice makes me very sad.

Actually I really wanted to write about the floods but started off with moaning !